Friday, December 31, 2010

Thanks 2010, it has been great and hello 2011!

2010 is coming to an end. In just 8 minutes, 2011 will say hi to all of us. So does this exact timing matters? Why must it be hallmark for change? Why do we have to wait for certain time to make resolution?
Hmm.. I guess this specific time help us to set our turning point. Without it some of us may not have any vision or will be lost.. Where is the end of my journey?
For me, i cherish two new years.. 1st muharram and 1st jan.. Both serve as a cornerstone for me to stop.. Look back what i have gone through past 12 months.. What I did and what I didn't do, what I should do and should not do...
Then, sit down and think how I want my life in the new year be..
But i don't quite see the point counting down the new year, watching fire crackers and partying.. What happens after that? Hangover? Tired and sleepy on the first day of a new year? Thought it should be THE day for us to start working for a new start?!
Oh, well.. It's one minute past midnight.. Happy new year all.. Hope you all had a great time in 2010 like I did and 2011 will be even greater..
Back to my comfortable warm blanket and pillow.. Hoping for a good start at work tmrw! BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Monday, December 6, 2010

Pleasure of doing nothing...

Oh.. This has been the most awaiting week before the new year begins... Breakaway week.. The most interesting part is, this breakaway week has 2 parts. Part 1 is ending soon.. Tomorrow that is..

So this first part of breakaway is kewl.. Really enjoying the pleasure of doing nothing. All I did was relaxing, siting by the beach and reading story books... All the stress totally gone. Could feel the energy coming back and I think I am ready to go back to work! Oops.. Not so soon! Second part will follow soon and can't wait for that too!

Oh, yeah... The new year in the Islamic calendar begins tomorrow.. Anything should have done but didn't do? Well, I suppose worth carrying forward.. Ready with new year resolution? Anyway, I wish everyone Salam ma'al hijrah and inshaAllah we will have a better and blessed year ahead. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Friday, December 3, 2010

Letting go..

Half of my patients in the female ward are in the geriatric group (age more than 65). Some are good old people - a term we use describing the functional status - independent, mobile and lucid. Some are the opposite..

So I had a patient.. 95 year-old lady... with some underlying medical problems. She was admitted to a different hospital before this. She told her children she wanted to die at home.. so they brought her home. However, the children noted their mother was very breathless that they could not bare looking at her mother like that.. she brought her to my hospital...

In the ward, she was not doing well and she knew her time is coming.. she wants to leave in peace. Some culture believe the best to die is to die at home, not the hospital. So, both the team and family decided to let her go if she deteriorate further. A mutual understanding that can sometimes be difficult to achieve between healthcare and family members.. May she rests in peace..

Loving someone is not only by keeping them with you, but sometimes letting them go. Letting them go in a dignified way.. in peace. I am sure she has had a wonderful 90 years of life. As for the children.. I am sure they were good children to her that they do not have guilt and regrets if she goes. Some people, at the very last minute of someone's life.. tend to decide to keep them. Not for the best interest of that someone.. But for their own best interest.. due to guilt etc... 

The thing is, cherish whatever we have, whoever that person is.. more so if they are our parents. Treat them well. Think as if either one of us can go at anytime and we do not want regrets and guilt. Keeping is not always a sign of love but letting go can be a sign of love.. a TRUE and SACRED love.. A sacrifice.. 

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Losing another friend to the neighbour..

Past 5 years in my career, met a lot of friends.. Good ones mostly. Went through thick and thin, ups and downs together... 2 have left.. But with the current technology, we are still in touch!

And tomorrow, losing another friend. T.R.Y. in short, will be going to Lion City to pursue her dreams to be a nephrologist.. To get into fellowship programme in Malaysia is taking too long until the country lost a lot of good doctors. Maybe we need to do something about it?

Anyway, T.R.Y., it's been a great pleasure to know you. Thanks for being there for me through thick and thin, from the first time we took our first part together to Singapore until now. I am sure supernova will agree with me on this!


Hard to say goodbye..


With supernova and ward sisters

Farewell present





Lastly, T.R.Y. all the best and do come back after your training.. 

Monday, November 29, 2010

So blessed...

Every Monday, I will go to work with the feeling of... I guess what they call as Monday blues.. Sad, unmotivated, tired, (especially after a good doing nothing weekend).. But, I still drag my feet, take a deep breath, walk pass the corridor of the fifth floor, glancing at the white board of ward 22 (looking for space for potential transfer), ward 24 (looking for how many patients I need to see) and ward 23 (comparing how many patients they have in that ward).. That's my routine before I start my day..

So today, I am glad to see there are enough space for potential transfer, and empty spaces in my ward.. No offense, not that I do not like to see patients.. That's my job and I love it! The thing is.. It's good for the staff as well as the patients when the ward is less full.. More air to breathe in...

Back to my routine.. Rush down to the clinic after my rounds, and as usual, clinic will finish around at the end of lunch time.. Quickly had a quick lunch and there you go another clinic in the afternoon. So today, my clinic ended 4 something.. So again, walked back to the ward and 2 new cases to be seen! Phewwww!!! I am very glad and happy. Despite the tiring, busy and a bit chaotic Mondays, I am always blessed because at the end of the day, it isn't as bad as I thought it would be and manageable! Alhamdulillah.. Thank you Allah. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Care for a walk?


 I was very happy to take off from work last week. Not that I don't like my work but, sometimes you need to be away from work.. to rejuvenate yourself, and kind of recharge yourself. It was a last minute thing, so didn't go outstation. But I decided to take a walk at the nearby lake garden.. TAMAN TASIK TITIWANGSA, and took some photos.. gave me some kind of satisfaction.. here were some of the photos taken..

The entrance of the lake garden

Hello, little ants!

Beautiful trees.. Subhanallah


Pokok semalu, right?


Ongoing construction

Hardworking man, keeping the area clean...





That's the spirit!

I was approached by my dedicated, wonderful houseman yesterday.. she likes paediatrics and plan to take exams ie. MRCPCh. So, she asked me if it's a good idea to take exams early.. I wanted to say... "Yes, of course, especially before you start having a family." Luckily I changed the question to, "Do you have a family on your own?" and she replied,  "Oh, yes. I have 2 kids." My jaw almost dropped.. I am so amazed with the spirit and motivation some people have. She's married with two kids, went through housemanship in one of the busiest hospital with no negative issues.. Way to go, girl!

So, my advise to her.. "Well, you have gone through housemanship with two kids, taking exams won't be a very big deal. Yeah.. do take exams early.. you never know whether you can make it in first, second or third attempts. So, need to be prepared early. The later you take, the lazier you will get and you will lose the momentum to study." - that's my view on postgraduate exam because that's how I am. Other people might look at it differently.

Still remember when we were in medical school, some lecturers were complaining about students getting married to early etc.. Well, let them be! As long as you know your limitation and your spouse's, you will be fine, I think. The thing is.. whatever you do in whatever circumstances, be sincere, be honest and always do the best for Allah. InshaAllah everything will be fine and in place.

So, you go, girl! You will be a good paediatrician!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Thank you, aunties...

Who says courtesy is out of fashion now?? I met two nice and caring aunties last week. First auntie in the hospital, at the walkway on my way home. I was rushing home, with hands on the phone tapping SMS to supernova, I think and was wearing my sling bag with the bag at the back.. One nice auntie came to me and said, "Assalamualaikum.. Don't face your bag to the back. People can do anything without you realizing it including putting drugs into your bag." I was speechless and replied her with a big smile and said "Thank you".

That's the entrance to the ballroom lobby
where the glamorous was taken place
Second auntie in Surau at the Marriot Hotel. They were having some KL Islamic Fashion Festival there. I wasn't attending it.. came straight from work to accompany a friend of mine who wanted to pick up something from Star Hill. Couldn't find a Surau in Star Hill. Is there a Surau there? Anyway, had to go to the hotel's surau... Felt so small, with my non-glamorous work attire I entered the lobby of the grand ballroom to see beautiful and elegant looking ladies and gentlemen. So do not belong there! So, being a forgetful and careless me, I left my laptop bag as well as my had handbag at the back and prayed.. As I finished, an auntie asked me, "Is this yours? Be careful.. Next time put it in front of you and don't leave it like this. I have lost my belongings just last week in a surau too." So ashamed of myself.. 29 year-old yet do not know how to take care of my stuff, could not say more than.. "Thank you".

See... Courtesy is not out of fashion.. So come on, bring courtesy back into our culture. Another message of the day... make sure things are in front of you... not at the back!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Introducing the new Nokia N8


Should this be my new love?? Can't wait to check out....!

Struggle of a single human being

29 and single ain't easy! Pressure is high until I feel I want to explode! I am blessed with good life, good career and great friends and family. But of course, more is expected of you by this age ie. having a family of your own.. Everywhere I go.. "so now that you are already at this stage of life and career, and when are you moving to the next step.. ie. wife and mother?" All I can do.. smile and say... next year! (Have been saying next year for the past few years though!) Hahaha.. what other answers can I give? 

Just please understand, I am not against it.. THE THING IS.. it's complicated. Ain't gonna elaborate here but please just wait.. If there is news, will tell the world about it... Meanwhile chill and leave me alone?! 

p/s: more bonus questions will be expected once one is married ie... when are u going to have a baby? when are you having a second/third/forth etc baby? when is your kid getting married? You see.. we are surrounded by too many concerned and caring people who want us to be happy and they've forgotten that by asking these questions, they add more ache and pain then help...

Friday, October 22, 2010

Not Meant To Be?

Hmm.. blessing in disguise.. So we say.. and we guess what is the blessing.. Yes, I am still talking about my missing/stolen iPhone. I am over it but.. still can't stop talking about it..

Without a doubt, I need to buy a new phone. But what I am thinking about is now.. which one? Buy another iPhone or buy a different phone... a smartphone I guess so that I can still continue my contract with Maxis...

That brings me to think why did I want an iPhone so badly.. Is it for the style? Is it because it's the trends? I was stupid enough to think that I need it because I am a Mac user and that's the only phone that can synchronize well with my macbook.. THE THING IS... I am so wrong! I just realized there are a lot of phones these days that can synchronize well with macbook.. without additional cost using iSync (a software that has been readily available in my macbook)

So, I was looking at other phones now.. and I am eyeing on Nokia N8.. I think it is worth buying... so battle between iPhone and N8.. who will win my heart???

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Not a very "happy" birthday..

Thanks a lot for all the birthday wishes.. good wishes of course.. for my happiness, blessed life, wishes to come true etc...

But! It was the most depressing birthday.. as you would know by now, I lost my love of my life.. on the very same week. So, I was mourning the whole week..

The morning of my birthday, I felt empty, sad, and lost. At work I was very irritable and felt like screaming and shouting at all the house officers and.. patients too. Fortunately, I could still control myself not to do it to patients.. but to some of the house officers.. sorry, man! If you guys dun buck up by next week... disciplinary actions will be taken. And I am serious!

So the whole Friday was totally a gloomy day.. I let it get into me.. I got too carried away.. Then I realised, why am I letting this get into me so deeply. Yes, I love it so much.. It's something that I have always wanted. I enjoyed and no regrets on the effort I made to get it. But sometimes, God is just testing you on how one would handle a loss.. Luckily this is an object.. What it is someone I love....? Hopefully that will not happen in the near future.. Amin.

The thing is.. life is never perfect.. There will always be challenges and obstacles to face. I think I have been lucky and blessed enough on how I have been tested....

"God does not impose on any soul a responsibility beyond its ability. Every soul receives whatever it gains and is liable for whatever it does. Lord, do not hold us responsible for our forgetfulness and mistakes. Lord, do not lay upon us that burden You laid on those who lived before us. Lord, do not lay on us what we cannot afford. Ignore and forgive our sins. Have mercy on us. You are our Lord. Help us against the unbelievers." (Surah Al-Baqarah, Ayah 286)

To all my family and friends.. thanks so much for the support and empathy. You all know me so well on how "it" meant to me...

So, it's time to cheer up and be a bit more careful next time.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Frustrated like #!*#!*^?!!!!!!

I am very sad today.. and frustrated... I have lost something that I really like and love.. especially the way I have lost it.. I lost my iPhone!!!!

I have "worked" very hard for it.. but I spent so little time with it.. about 3 weeks. Moments I have spent with it was so great and I don't think anything else can replace it.. and I am still in denial....... (hoping for someone to return it back to me.. )

Oh, dear iPhone.. please come back to me..
Oh, dear people who have "accidentally" taken it.. please return it back to me..
Oh, dear Maxis.. please be kind to me, let me buy the phone at cheaper price and do not have to wait for the queue.
Oh, dear Mr IO (Investigating Officer).. please locate my phone..
Last but not least.. Oh, dear Allah.. give me strength to accept this..

(Okay.. I am being too dramatic.. can't help it..)

How bad this may look.. I am sure there is blessing indisguise.. Thank you Allah..

Sunday, October 10, 2010

For healthy living..

Thanks, Supernova! She introduced me to this kewl website.. So many tips on health and weight management. The best part.. the recipes.. the meal planner. So, dieting is not about not eating.. but it is about eating right:

  • portion control
  • choosing the right ingredients
  • eat regularly - 3 main meals and 2 snacks
So I recommend you to drop by this site and register.. You don't have to crack your head choosing menu etc. They provide the meal plan for the week and recipes too!

Visit.. Everyday Health at http://www.everydayhealth.com

Can't wait to try the recipes..!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Good morning.. Time for healthy cooking!

This new addiction can be fatal.. yes, baking and cooking can be fatal! Especially to others as I like to see other people to eat. At the moment, the whole family.. brother, sister, SIL, BIL and even my mom are trying to adapt "healthy lifestyle". Running obesity clinic gives me more motivation to comply to it. So, everytime I say I want to bake something.. my SIL will say, "Oh, no! We will fat!"

My SIL and I were successful in turning down (oh, acutally we couldn't resist taking 1 spoon) chocolate lava from Chef & Brew. It's our favourite desert and so yummy.. we decided to just see the kids enjoying it until I had to stop feeding my niece... Afraid of taking the spoon and feed myself than her!

So, don't worry SIL.. I baked something healthy today.. Pumpkin Muffin. I took this recipe from Kitchen Stewardship. The motto of this website is good and logical - Balancing God's Gift.. Some people would say.. "We live only once.. why think so much of the calorie, fat etc.. Not good to waste.. Now that we are healthy we should enjoy the food.. Nikmat yang Allah berikan etc... When we are sick, we will not be able to enjoy it" BUT STOP! THE THING IS.. Food is not the only nikmat/goodness that Allah gives us. How about health and strength? So, be careful when you want to use religion to defend your action. Look at it this way.. WE EAT TO LIVE AND NOT LIVE TO EAT. Practise how out Prophet ate. Remember to enjoy all the nikmat given to us.. food, sleep, health, strength, wealth, love... lists will just go to infernity..

Coming back to the recipe.. very simple!

Ingredients:


Mix together and allow to rest (soak) overnight at room temperature:
  • 1 2/3 cup white whole wheat flour
  • 1 c. pureed pumpkin
  • 3/4 c. water + 2 Tbs buttermilk or plain yogurt
  • 1/2 c. melted butter
Do make sure your butter is cooled a bit before mixing in, and pour while mixing so the colder ingredients don’t harden up the butter.
When ready to bake, add:
  • 1 cup sugar or natural granular alternative
  • 2 eggs
  • 1/4 tsp baking powder
  • 1 1/2 tsp baking soda
  • 3/4 tsp salt
  • 1/2 tsp cloves
  • 1/2 tsp cinnamon
  • 1/2 tsp nutmeg
Method: Pour into muffin cups and bake 45 minutes at 325 degrees F.  They’ll be a bit more moist than you’re used to with the “toothpick test”.  Do not overbake!  Allow to rest 5 minutes in the tins, then tip out to cool on racks.
Have a good time enjoying it!

So kiasu..

Moment I have been waiting arrived on 24th September 2010! iPhone4 collection day! (I actually typed this post the next day I got it.. but had problems with my internet connection at home) By now, some of my friends would be bored to hear about my iPhone4 drama.. hehe

I was on leave on 24th September for other reason but I squeeze some time.. Ok that's an understatement... I squeezed a lot of time to collect the iPhone..

I do not why I felt that I needed iPhone asap which led me to spending a lot time, money n effort to literally wait for the iPhone in the Gardens!

I waited 8 hours from time I got my number to pick up the gadget and spent RM 20 over for parking!(that's bcos the parking was so full that I decided to park at the valet parking... Hehe).

I didn't go home as fear tht I'll lose the parking space. So that was the longest outing in midvalley/gardens.

So, what did I do? Plenty of things!

The moment I got my no.. 3884.. So from the start they already told us "At least 3 hours waiting time before you will be served.." So I thought, maybe not too bad.. It was 3 pm and I estimated that I want to go back there by 6 pm..

I headed back to megamall.. trying to figure how should I spend that 3 hours.. Movie.. no interesting movies and I might miss praying time etc.. Not in the mood for shopping, especially when you are about to burst your pocket to buy iPhone4. Found a hair salon.. never ever been to one like this before... So there you go, I spent almost 2 hours doing beautification stuff.. haha.

It was still early when I was done with it.. Strolling around aimlessly.. didn't want to hang out in coffee shop.. Will indulge myself in rich deserts and coffee.. double guilt (buy iPhone and eating sinfully). Paris Miki had a sale and I thought it's time to change my glasses.. last time I changed was 3 years back maybe? It has always been difficult to get a small frame to suit my face... SO I just grabbed it!

I reached the collecting area at around 6.30pm. To my disappointment.. the no. was 3200plus.. that meant.. had another 600+ people to be called by me.. and the number didn't move that fast either! But somehow I didn't want to give up.. So I went in and out that place several times.. went for dinner, buy books, drinks, read books etc.. and finally I went in again at around 9.30pm.. this time the no. was moving pretty fast.. less than 100 more to go.. Thank you Supernova who kept me company (via SMS) through out the process.. I almost wanted to leave at 10.30pm if I didn't get to be called by then. By 10.30pm.. Less than 20 people to go and I came this far.. leaving at this last minute.. didn't sound right.. and I finally I got called at 10.50pm!

Feeling was great! SATISFACTION was unbelievable! I finally left Midvalley around 11.15pm.. Luckily shops like Pizza Hut was still open.. so wasn't that scary when I walked towards the my parking..

Supernova told me that "This is the craziest thing that you done... this year.. or maybe your whole life!" Yes.. I was possessed by Apple and THE THING IS.. Yeah, I do agree.. maybe this is the craziest thing I have done in my life.. Waiting for a phone for 8 hours... And I have no regrets! Really worth it.. It's not just a phone.. It's my Iphone4!

Kekanda Adinda (Monoloque vs. Atilia)



Isn't this song cute? And so realistic..

Red velvet cake..





I first tasted red velvet cake in a friends' house.. Fatie, bought in Bangsar Village.. Like the taste but too filling.. second time was my aunt's house.. It was a red velvet cupcake.. too filling but it has this strong bitter taste. Maybe she used beet root? Because of the uniqueness of this cake - a chocolate cake in red colour and combined with cheese topping, made me excited to do one.. A friend of mine tried in a fancy restaurant recently and thought there was nothing special about the cake and it tasted just like the usual cake made by local folks.. I don't know? I was googling for the recipe found and finally decided to try this one out.. from Joy of Baking.. Did some alteration - as indicated in the highlighted font.. The taste is simple yet elegant.. simple because the cake is light and elegant with the rich whipped cream and cream cheese topping.



Ingredients:

2 1/2 cups (250 grams) sifted cake flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 tablespoons (15 grams) regular or Dutch-processed cocoa powder (I used Van Houten Cocoa powder)
1/2 cup (113 grams) unsalted butter, at room temperature (I used salted butter, so I omitted the salt)
1 1/2 cups (300 grams) granulated whitesugar
large eggs
1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract (I used Star Brand Vanilla Essence)
1 cup (240 ml) buttermilk (I made this on my own as recommended by this website - add 1 cup of fresh milk - I used skim milk and add 1 tablespoon of lemon juice/white vinegar, let it stand for 5-10 minutes before using)
2 tablespoons liquid red food coloring
1 teaspoon white distilled vinegar
1 teaspoon baking soda

Methods:




1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) and place rack in center of oven. Butter two - 9 inch (23 cm) round cake pans and line the bottoms of the pans with parchment paper. Set aside.
2. In a mixing bowl sift together the flour, salt, and cocoa powder. Set aside.
3. In bowl of your electric mixer, or with a hand mixer, beat the butter until soft (about 1-2 minutes). Add the sugar and beat until light and fluffy (about 2-3 minutes). Add the eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition. Scrape down the sides of the bowl.Add the vanilla extract and beat until combined.
4. In a measuring cup whisk the buttermilk with the red food coloring. With the mixer on low speed, alternately add the flour mixture and buttermilk to the butter mixture, in three additions, beginning and ending with the flour.
5. In a small cup combine the vinegar and baking soda. Allow the mixture to fizz and then quickly fold into the cake batter. 
6. Working quickly, divide the batter evenly between the two prepared pans and smooth the tops with an offset spatula or the back of a spoon. Bake in the preheated oven for approximately 25 - 30 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted in the center of the cakes comes out clean. Cool the cakes in their pans on a wire rack for 10 minutes.
7. Place a wire rack on top of the cake pan and invert, lifting off the pan. Once the cakes have completely cooled, wrap in plastic and place the cake layers in the refrigerator for at least an hour (or overnight). (This is done to make filling and frosting the cakes easier.)


Cream Cheese Frosting:
16 ounce cream cheese, room temperature
1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
1 cup (115 grams) confectioners' (icing or powdered) sugar, sifted
1 1/2 (360 ml) cups heavy whipping cream

Methods:

In the bowl of your electric mixer, or with a hand mixer, beat the cream cheese and mascarpone cheese until smooth. Add the vanilla and confectioners sugar and beat until smooth. Using the whisk attachment, gradually add the heavy cream and whip until the frosting is thick enough to spread. Add more sugar or cream as needed to get the right consistency.


Assemble: With a serrated knife, cut each cake layer in half, horizontally. You will now have four cake layers. Place one of the cake layers, top of the cake facing down, onto your serving platter. Spread the cake layer with a layer of frosting.  Place another layer of cake on top of the frosting and continue to frost and stack the cake layers. Frost the top and sides of the cake. Can garnish the cake with sweetened or unsweetened coconut.

Read more at: http://www.joyofbaking.com/RedVelvetCake.html


So, HAPPY TRYING!!



This is how it looked it right from the oven.. texture is very moist and fluffy...
 After the cake is covered by the cream cheese topping..

 This is how it looked like.. I did 3 layers instead of 4 layers..

Sarah enjoyed eating this cake.. Thanks!

p/s: all photos were taken with my iPhone.. oh, I miss it..


New addiction...

It all started 2 weeks ago when I had group of my friends came over to my house.. haven't baked for awhile.. So I decided that I want to bake something.. easiest recipe is of course Carrot and Walnut Cake. The best recipe I tried is from a friend of mine (her mom's recipe) - Wan Noraini. So, I had to browse the "inbox" of my Facebook and finally found it.. It was sent to me on January, 8th 2008 and now only I am trying it out!

Not to say I am good cook.. but the recipe is very delicious.. I know a lot of you all want to try it out.. so here it is.. Happy trying..

Carrot Cake (exact recipe - no editing)

Cooking time: 1hr-1hr 15 min

Ingredients:
200 g/7 oz flour
2 tsp bicarbonate of soda
1 tsp cinnamon
pinch of grated nutmeg
1/2 tsp of salt
400 g/14 oz soft brown sugar
350ml/12 fl oz vegetable oil
4 large eggs,beaten
400 g/14 oz grated carrots
275g/10 oz chopped walnuts (dibakar terlebih dahulu)
Butter for greasing

Methods:
1. beat the sugar and the oil for a few minutes..(no need to kembang..coz it wont pun..)
2. add in the eggs one by one..beat until kembang.
3. sieve the flour, cinnamon, soda bicarbonate together and add it into the mixture.
4. no need to kacau lama once u have added the flour..just kacau to let it sebati jer..then add in the grated carrots and the walnuts.
5.oops..remember to add in a bit of salt.
6.bake for 1-11/2hr at 180 C.

Topping(penyedap kek): 

120g butter
250g cream cheese
120g icing sugar
Methods:
1. beat the icing sugar with the butter until kembang, then add the cream cheese.

Never knew baking is addictive... so last week I tried out red velvet cake.. wait for the next post for the recipe! What should I bake this week? hmm....


The carrot cake before covered by the cream cheese frosting

Beating the cream cheese, sugar and butter.. 

Very homemade looking isn't it?

Monday, September 20, 2010

iPhone 4

Thank you Supernova for the distraction! Just got to know iPhone 4 will be in town soon.. very soon! Instead of updating my other blog... my eyes are stuck at the Maxis homepage and reviewing the iValue and iData plan etc.. oh, so can't wait! but again.. decision, decision.. which plan should I take? Any suggestions??

I love my job!

OK, despite the busy and mad clinic day today.. I am happy! I met all kinds of patients today.. good ones, ok ones, and stubborn ones...

My first patient was patient who has HIV after being very naugthy when he was young. He was lucky his wife didn't leave him. But of course no more intimacy between them.. Asked if he minds.. "Saya juga buat salah, saya kena tanggung la." 

My second patient made my day! Case of obesity with its complications - diabetes, obstructive sleep apnoea, hypertension and fatty liver. BMI of 37. Obesity.. I have special interest in this! Too bad previously, issue of weight reduction wasn't very highlighted.. too many people concentrated on treating the complications rather than principal problem. We tend to tell patients you need to cut down on your food without telling them how.. you need to exercise without telling them how. He initially was trying to give 101 excuses for not exercising until I told him "We can create 1001 excuses for not doing things we should do. At the end of the day.. we suffer from consequences of our very own excuses.." He paused and agreed. I spent almost 1 hour with him.. and usual manner he thanked me and appreciated my consultation. I think I touched a life there.. but I told him to prove his appreciation by giving me results in the next 1 month.. I hope he will.

I am glad that the patients I saw today in the morning clinic were rather pleasant...

Monday afternoon.. my special interest clinic.. Obesity. Was disappointed initially as some of the patients didn't lose weight... the good thing is, they have actually changed their eating habit.. that's good start isn't it? But again.. they created excuses for not being active.... too busy, no time, too expensive to buy an exercise machine etc..

However, I am proud of 1 patient of mine... He actually gave excuses when I asked him to walk from the hospital quarters to the "Kitchen" (he's a chef in our hospital) during his last consultation. Surprise.. surprise.. he actually took my word and started walking form his quarters to work. :) Within this 2 weeks, he has lost 2kg!

THE THING IS..  not about a patient listening to what a doctor has to say.. but it's about working together towards the goal and making them understand why things are done the way there are... I am happy when they understand and work hard to achieve the goal.. like today... and I realised I love my job!

   

Hari Raya break is over!

Last week was... pleasant. Traffic .. in and outside the hospital.. crystal clear. The office was empty, the clinic was empty... was taking my own sweet time reviewing each and every patient. Nobody too ill to handle... oh, how I wish it'd be like this all the time. Good for the patients - do not have to face the "market-like" chaos and of course good for the staff too.. give us time to stop and think...

So, back to reality! Traffic to work is back to normal, especially as both international schools MIGS and ISKL) started their session.. oh, I hope it's summer all year!

Too bad good things do not last forever! Today, back to madness! The clinic was crowded as ever and morning patients overlapped with the afternoon clinic patients! Sorry to all the patients - we've tried our very best. Hope you had a satisfactory treatment today..

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Selamat Hari Raya

Pheww.... I think everything is almost done now... what a day! Luckily I took enough leaves. About to retire to bed now...

THE THING IS... before I go to bed, would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin. May all of us have a blessed day tomorrow and days to come..

Reminder to myself: please maintain whatever good practices I have done during this Holy month.. especially the eating habit part.. can't bear the thought that I might regain some weight after this!

Eid Mubarak! Take care.. drive safely!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Ultimate Happiness

"Sepanjang 27 tahun aku disogokkan dengan idea bahawa kebahagiaan hanya boleh dicapai dengan menurut perintah dan untuk tidak menjadi anak yang derhaka," said one of the cast in a local soap opera last night.. (yeah... I am a big fan of dramas.. whatever language..) he said it with full of anger and as if it was all lies...

So what's the message behind this? Being an insolent child will make you happy because you are following what you want and you are in control of your own life? Being an obedient child will make you unhappy?

Well, i beg to defer! "Syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu." That's what we've been told for ages. So it's pretty clear that if we want happiness, obey our mothers we must. So long it is not contradictory to the teachings of Islam.

I guess if we can remember why we are in this world.. as caliph.. and that this world is a temporary place, a pit stop .. determining where and how we will be in the thereafter, we won't feel being obedient is a burden. Of course, love for our parents is unconditional, loving them for our Creator but must not be above the love for Him

So coming back to the statement, well.. duh! Happiness is to be achieved by being an obedient child.. that should be THE ultimate happiness. You may think you will be happy to just follow your dreams, follow what your heart says to the expense of being an insolent child.. but is our mind so tiny that we think about ONLY today and not tommorrow? THE THING IS.. broaden our mind and think again why we are here is this today and without our parents and their upbringing, we won't be where we are now.. I am so blessed to have wonderful parents and family.. and I know we all are... 

Ending of Ramadhan 1431H

Pejam.. celik.. pejam.. celik.. bulan puasa dah nak habis... That's how my mama will describe how fast time flies.. and I totally agree with her!

It feels as if.. only yesterday was the 1st of Ramadhan 1431H. But hey.. wake up! 29th Ramadhan is the date today! I am not sure about you all.. but I am not confident that I've filled this month the way we should.. in a way.. I felt something is lacking and missing... and don't quite know what.. maybe I didn't do enough prayers, sedekah or read the Quran this year. Hopefully whatever good deeds we have done will be accepted by Allah.

So they say Ramadhan is not just a month.. but it is a "madrasah". Training us.. The "syaitan" and "iblis" all tied up.. So this is the month to see our true colours.. Without the persuasion etc.. So can this one month help us to be good for the remaining 11 months?

Not sure if I have graduated with first class degree from this "madrasah" but I hope we can continue first class "akhlak" in years to come..

Goodbye Ramadhan and Welcome Syawal.. Will we meet again next year? I hope so because I am missing you already..

Monday, September 6, 2010

Rotund...



Weight management has become my passion. For some reason I don't quite know. Maybe because I, myself have been trying to lose some weight..?


My friend and I are very excited about this clinic that we set up not too long ago.. Alhamdulillah things are moving pretty well and smooth. Of course with the support of our dear boss. 

Past few months running the clinic, I can see why people can be at the weight they are at... simply because:
  1. comfort eating.. trying to console themselves with eating.. at the end, they are sad again because they have become so big, and eat again to console themselves again.. this cycle goes on and on
  2. extremely good appetite.. everything is just too delicious until instead of eat to live, they live to eat
  3. peer pressure... this is true as some of "friends" give wrong advise! Met a patient yesterday whom his friend told him... "Tight control of diet in 1 day and indulge on the other day!" THE THING IS... it does not work that way...! Remember istiqamah (consistent)? Oh, yes! Even in eating we need to be istiqamah! 
  4. do not exercise and find 1001 excuses not to exercise
  5. opportunistic eating... this is very true in people who work in the kitchen.. they will eat anything and everything in the kitchen
  6. sedentary lifestyle.. how many of us spend our free time by playing sports? Most of us would either watch TV and mind you.. there are so many channels and VCDs/DVDs to watch! And the other half would spend their time on-line.. ie. Facebook etc....


Not that I am prejudice towards those who are overweight and obese, but THE THING IS... we have to do something to change it. Not for the beauty. Not to say APPLE or PEAR not in trend and Monalisa is.. but it's for the HEALTH. Waiting for diseases related to weight problems ie. diabetes mellitus, hypertension, heart disease, obstructive sleep apnoea... will all be too late. So, come on and let's make some change! And I know this is possible! "Nak seribu daya, Tak nak seribu dalih".

2 weeks ago, I was very inspired when I met a chef who weighed 156kg in January.. and now she is 129kg and very keen to lose further. How did she do it? DETERMINATION and CONSISTENCY, plus a little bit of help with medication (that's why they come to us... ). She's changed her menu.. stick to it everyday without fail. Dessert doesn't seem appetizing anymore. She never exercised before and now has started brisk walking 30 minutes daily. Trust me, it wasn't easy! She got critics and nasty comments from her brother and sister.. and yet she is very determined to fight them! I hope she is successful in maintaining the weight loss and very enthusiastic to help her achieve her goals.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Blogging again...

I first started blogging in early part of the year.. was blogging for something more academic. After a while I stopped. Busy with work and bad internet connection in work place.. THE THING IS... these were my excuses. That's life! We tend to create excuses.. to explain why we do what we do...

I always talk to myself (mind you.. I am not delusional or having any kind of hallucinations).. just this small voice in my heart. Dissecting decisions that I have made.. whether it's right or wrong.. How I came to that decision etc. And I always thought that someday, I may want to write a book.. To share my thoughts and ideas.. sharing how I've lived this beautiful world with so much blessings. THE THING IS.. I tend to delay  certain things and doing it at a very last minute.. A dear friend of mine is a regular blogger. Looking at her blog today made me divert my "ambition" from writing a book to blogging. So, here it goes.. Blogging again...