Not a very "happy" birthday..

Thanks a lot for all the birthday wishes.. good wishes of course.. for my happiness, blessed life, wishes to come true etc...

But! It was the most depressing birthday.. as you would know by now, I lost my love of my life.. on the very same week. So, I was mourning the whole week..

The morning of my birthday, I felt empty, sad, and lost. At work I was very irritable and felt like screaming and shouting at all the house officers and.. patients too. Fortunately, I could still control myself not to do it to patients.. but to some of the house officers.. sorry, man! If you guys dun buck up by next week... disciplinary actions will be taken. And I am serious!

So the whole Friday was totally a gloomy day.. I let it get into me.. I got too carried away.. Then I realised, why am I letting this get into me so deeply. Yes, I love it so much.. It's something that I have always wanted. I enjoyed and no regrets on the effort I made to get it. But sometimes, God is just testing you on how one would handle a loss.. Luckily this is an object.. What it is someone I love....? Hopefully that will not happen in the near future.. Amin.

The thing is.. life is never perfect.. There will always be challenges and obstacles to face. I think I have been lucky and blessed enough on how I have been tested....

"God does not impose on any soul a responsibility beyond its ability. Every soul receives whatever it gains and is liable for whatever it does. Lord, do not hold us responsible for our forgetfulness and mistakes. Lord, do not lay upon us that burden You laid on those who lived before us. Lord, do not lay on us what we cannot afford. Ignore and forgive our sins. Have mercy on us. You are our Lord. Help us against the unbelievers." (Surah Al-Baqarah, Ayah 286)

To all my family and friends.. thanks so much for the support and empathy. You all know me so well on how "it" meant to me...

So, it's time to cheer up and be a bit more careful next time.